Monday, May 9, 2011
Grandpa its 6:00am in the morning, and I have been up all weekend thnking and thinking about you. Thinking about how I wish I were there for you, thinking that I WISHED I had seen you one last time. This is when I hurt the most, when I think of how I have NOT seen you consistantly and I know I should have. Now all I can do is hope that you feel me or see me writing this to you, so that I can feel better and not be so sad. So I can try to go on without regret which is almost impossible, the regret will always be there and my heart will always hurt because I was never really there like other grand children. I have asked myself did he know you loved him? Did he know that I really did appreciate him? Did he know that when I was sad, angry or hurt he would ALWAYS make me laugh? Did you know all of this? If you never did know grandpa, well I hope you know now. As I sit here I can only pray to get back to Texas, when I feel that Texas breeze I hope I feel you, when I hear certain songs I hope to hear you. and when I kiss mom I hope you will feel my kisses through her. I'm so sad grandpa I Love You and will miss you.
